Wednesday, November 23, 2005

so...

i'm in a pretty terrible mood at the moment..might have something to do with the fact that i hardly slept a wink last night...2 hours..max..maybe something to do with the 3 cans of pepsi i drank with my bag of popcorn...might have something to do with the wheels turning in my head..might have something to do with the fact that 99.9 % of the people that i care about, and considered to be close to me are in fact..500 bazillion miles away..why is it...whenever one of my friends has a problem..they can come to me..and i listen...without judgement..and offer whatever advice...or solution that i can..why is it that i open my arms and my heart to them..without one second of thought..it is because..THAT is what friends are supposed to do for each other...right?! i thought so...so why is it that these people that i give myself so completely to, are to busy when I am the one who has a problem..or needs someone to lean on...or just needs someone to say.."hey..u know what nic...things aren't always as bad as they seem".... it is because they are small..and self absorbed..and...and..i dunno what the hell else they are..but from here on in..they are NO friends of mine.

4 comments:

littleandie said...

the crap moments of life always make the awesome ones feel so much better; without crap there would eb no awesome. there is always an awesome one right around the corner and when you are feeling crappy they are often the little things like dancing in the rain and spashing in puddles. Tomorrow go out and make a million snow angles and enjoy the sparkle of the fresh snow. and smile that will always put a smile on your face.

Mel said...

ok I so know how you feel. Good friends are hard to find, and even harder for me for some reason. Anyway, hang in there and it will get better, have a cyber shoulder to lean on...here...is that better?

Josh said...

Sorry you’re having a rough time and your friends are sucking. I’ve had my fair share of the crappy friends that disappear anytime you need to talk. Hang in there!

nicki said...

thanks for the kind words :) i really do appreciate them :) and all you here in blog land :)